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Just saying…. The reason for this of course is that after major surgery, one is prone to infection. After heart surgery, it can be particularly dangerous. For some reason I can’t quite work out, your lungs end up super weak post operatively. Coughs, colds, the flu and the now dreaded C-bomb would be particularly dangerousContinue reading “I was self isolating before it was cool……”

Ouch. Ouuuuccccchh. Did I mention – ouch? Ok, so they tell you heart surgery is going to hurt, but I don’t think it can be comprehended how much, until you have been through it. So it hurts. A lot. Let’s leave it at that. And move on. I haven’t blogged for a while, for aContinue reading “Ouch!”

I’m a passenger in my own life. It’s been this way since July.  I often feel like I am someone else.  Watching my life go by, floating in a space between, staring mindlessly. There…….but not there.  I pull myself back into my body, and push on. I’m on the train, I know where it’s going,Continue reading “Push on…..”

What is life without admin. Timings Op is on 10th Feb, but won’t start till about 4pm and finish at around 10pm.  Comms Candice will hear from the surgeon that night that all is well, I will be enjoying myself in ICU on a heavy dose of morphine. We have a whatsapp group you canContinue reading “Logistics break….”

Facing one’s own mortality is strange. When I was young, I thought I would live fast and die young; age 30-35 would be plenty. I didn’t live fast, I am still here and I don’t want to die young. But what are these histrionics all about, really? Let’s look at some numbers. Up until thisContinue reading “Death, statistics and motorbikes”

I have a tight pain in the left side of my chest, it hurts when I stretch.  This pain has nothing to do with my heart. Its muscular, and relates to my back.  I thought it was heart pain, but I was mistaken. It poses an interesting question though: following my various sessions with theContinue reading “Musings & Realities”

Many people say to me “stay positive”. Hmmm.  Easy to say. I am of course normally am an absolute paragon of positivity.  People enquire regularly as to where I get my oodles of happiness and life-affirming joy from.   This post will therefore focus on all that’s good in the world. First though, let’s be honest,Continue reading “Positive Pants Time”

So very tired. I’m tired of the usual things; Brexit, work drudgery, politics, office politics, winter and lack of sleep. I’m tired because of Sadie, but in a good way, as the more tired I am,the more waking hours I get to spend with her.  There’s nothing like a new(ish) baby to reduce the amount ofContinue reading “I’m tired”

Choices, research, Ross &……Thank You.  To everyone who messaged, read the blog, commented or sent love.  It’s been really heart warming (pun intended) and I’ve been quite overwhelmed by it.  My plan was to write for me; I never expected so many people to take interest.  My heartfelt(!) thanks for all the love and support. *HEALTH WARNING*Continue reading “The “Procedure””

So the Dr says “You need open heart surgery“……….. Wow. Great. How do you react? Laugh? Joke? Ask Why? When? The first thing I did was cry. I was angry & scared. Honestly though, I knew it would be this time, it’s always been coming, although there’s always been the hope that it can beContinue reading “You need open heart surgery”